Well, now that I'm I've finished my contract, I'm officially "self-employed".
I'm trying not to use the word "jobless", as it subconsciously promotes laziness and urges me to find another job. "So you are not going to get another job!?" Well, yes. I'm currently trying out earning income through my digital skills. So far so good, I aroused curiosity through the character designs I posted on FB. Denise from NYPSO suddenly consulted me on whether there are any video tutorials to create the design that I made. Initially I thought she was having some Animation project, only later that I realized that she is actually engaged and would like to create her own wedding animation for her wedding next year, and she is considering my service. A good start I would say.

My brother suggested that I create a jokes animation on youtube, and earn from their sponsorship. Hmm...

I read this story of Jay Chou, about how he as a kid actually struggled with his studies and social life. I really think having someone who believes in you indefinitely can shape/change one’s destiny. My utmost respect to his mother who endured his father’s abusive nature and public’s negative rambling, and yet able to raise him single-handedly. She literally gave all her time and money to him. Comparing to other mothers in general, how many would spend all their savings to buy their sons a grand piano and Cello to develop their son’s interest? How many would persevere and find ways to enroll their son into a good school even though the school have repeatedly rejected their application? How many would still believe that their son is not an idiot even though their teachers and principals labeled them as mentally handicapped? How many would visit their son every day at work just to be assured that he is doing well?

Insanity is doing something over & over again expecting different result.
I beg to differ... to a certain extent.

Gaining Weight, at the stomach.

Got to start working out.

I think my office trained me well.
Making a call is not as terrifying anymore.

Gonna enroll into University, but which one? I've not yet decided.

That's another reason why I'm lazy to get a full-time job now,

who would want to hire someone who is about to go Uni.

And my current Temp Job's contract ending soon.

I'm thinking I should try out freelancing while waiting for Uni.

I could get some income and full control of my time.

Asked my supervisor if I could work 3 days a week instead,

she could only give me 4 working days with Wednesday off. 

Oh well, better than nothing. 1 full day to do my freelancing.

"I should plug out my internet cable on that day", is what I wanted to say.

But who am I kidding, internet has become a necessity in my life,

no mater in a positive or negative way.

I'm facing my office computer right now,

a little sleepy and groggy.

It's lunch time and supervisors are not around.

Got a few cases to do but seriously sick of doing the same thing over and over.

...What the hell am I doing...

My laptop should be burned,
It's like a mousetrap for human!
It's essential to my income but a time waster at the same time!
Damn you internet!

May reminded me something that I’ve been trying to ignore all these while.

“What a waste of talent!”. Yes, what a waste of talent.

What was I thinking going into admin?

“Then are you stuck? You don’t feel adequate going into Media, and you don’t like admin. What’s stopping you from further upgrade your skill? Are the software expensive?”

Honestly, software is not a problem as I have my way to get them cheap.

So yeah, what’s stopping me? I can’t come up with any excuse but to admit that I was just plain LAZY.

So what am I going do about it?

Reminder to this month :

-         - Start Daren’s Wedding, Sinnee’s Video & Massage Palor’s Animation

-         - Buy a bigger backpack for tools

-         - Buy a Samsung Galaxy S1 Battery

-         - Pay Telephone Bill

My Gosh, everything is money related!

First time doing strangers market,
didn't really turn out as expected, but it's a good training.
You wouldn't believe how nervous I was,
I think I almost made a fool of myself.
This will be a good story in the future. Hehe

How could someone be so stubborn and nonchalant?

Never have I seen someone who has lost so much hope in life before.

So emotionless, so selfish, it's kind of... dark... and scary.

Damn it, you think your life revolves only around you? That would be one sad life you are having.

Have you ever thought about how your friends would feel? What about your parents?

Shit... how many times do I have to tell you that's it's not only about you, but also the people around you!

Just got back from Detox Camp.

It was an awesome experience, the whole staying in a hotel thing.

Realised how acidic and toxic my body is. My whole body was sore most of the camp.

I'll be back a better person and friend.

I will, I will yes I will.

I entered this Buddhism community recently, gets to know new people.

It was very awkward at first, but everyone warms up to each other after a few months.

We organised a Mother's Day Party and even managed to came up with our own Mother's Day appreciation video. Suddenly everyone seems familiar and close.

I asked one of them what makes him stay in this community.

And he answered because he can feel that everyone is sincerely wants to be your friend.

There are no mask at all. Everyone is on their natural look.

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During a makan session with my mentors, I was advised to read more self-improvement books.

I chose to read "How to make friends and influence people".

In the book, I read that you have to be genuinely interested in someone for them to be genuine towards you.

Upon reading this sentence, suddenly Cherry came to mind.

Cherry, from NYPSO.

Cherry, who used to be... different

I used to be puzzled by her transformation.

Within a span of a year, she instantly became the centre of attraction.

She loves being with people, and people love her!

And I assumed it was because she has embraced the above principle.

I've been inspired lately by a movie and I've decided to jot down my thoughts.

In life, we are constantly bombarded by other people's opinion.
The end result is the person you've become. Your character.
Unfortunately, the majority of the World's population practice almost, if not, the same mindset.
I think it is very rare to meet a person who have a unique mindset of their own.
These people, when you met them, stood out like an odd ball.
They are usually meant for something big... or just plain attention seekers.
I believe that everyone in this world has a 贵人, who would change the course of your life forever, in a good way.
If you don't, most probably you haven't met yours yet. Or you just didn't realize they are your 贵人yet.

Yes, everybody has a 贵人, but if you are not matured enough, he will just pass you by and miss the chance.
Most of the time, they would still encourage you, motivate you to leave the cage of your comfort zone and upgrade you. This phase requires you to have a leap of faith, jumping to an unknown boundary, and most of the time, you will fall, but it's okay, it is human to err. But once you made it, not only that you expand your comfort zone, you would land in the MAGIC ZONE, that's where miracles happen.

This movie I've watched "3 Idiots" is a bollywood movie which was introduced to me by a friend.
Initially he mentioned that it is a comedy, till I realised at the end of the movie that it is actually an inspirational movie... okay with some comedy elements.
The story is about these 3 guys who made it into the Imperial College of engineering, with a very competitive environment.
2 of which were enrolled upon their families expectation, whereby "Rancho" enrolled simply because of his passion for machines.
Along the course of studies, Rancho's conventional way of problem solving go against the school method of teaching, whereby each students were expected to stick with existing solutions with restricted imaginations.
The 3 idiots came together by fate when they were assigned the same room.
Along the way, with Rancho's help, the other 2 idiots, who were blindly following the school's system starts opening to his conventional way of thinking, and saved them from a few would be unfortunate incident.

That's all for the write up, hope it aroused enough curiosity for you to watch it. Below is the link, and I really recommend any of you to watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aVbquQRUxI

甲：多媒体系对我来说是一个擅长，可是我不是很喜欢。又有些功课压力会让我有一点讨厌它。我在想是否可以转科转系？

乙：你的目地是为了逃避不是为了追求梦想。逃避永远不会得到答案的。你从一个地方逃到另一个地方，你永远不知道那个地方是不是更苦。而且就算那个地方不苦，你也只不过找了一个 SECOND BEST,第二好的答案。但是所谓的人生如果我们有选着的话永远要追求的是第一好的。是你真正最喜欢，是你真正即使被折磨，被人家给予很多挫折你还是愿意往前走。 那才是真正的方向。

Day 1 without games.

Yesterday I got the urge to listen to 五月天 music during my lunch break.

And at the same time I was thinking about the things I could do once me and my family had the privilege to own the stage. I could totally imagine myself 演讲 with confident and after all that slowly walks to my drumset with my brothers and sisters going up the stage on standby.

"1... 2... 1, 2, 3, 4!"

And with a loud bang, the multi-colored mobile stage light beams the whole place as we start our music. Jokko on the Vocal, Johannes on the Guitar, XP on the keyboard and I'm keeping the beat with my drumset. As we played, the footage of me and my groups adventure were flashing on the white screens for all the audience to see.

And then I closed my eyes, letting myself immerse in my imagination, I could see from the eyes of the future me. The audience, the cheer, my family, and most importantly... the EXPERIENCE. flashing back to how it all started, of all the hardship I went through to earn the right to be on stage, and how proud my late father would be. I could finally prove to my dad that I am not the same uncaring, timid, pushover, useless kid I used to be. I finally fulfilled the promise I made with you on your dying bed about being able to take care of myself. At the front VIP seat, mom was smiling, cheering and clapping for us, as if saying that she is proud of all of us, and occasionally wiping her watery cheek.

One day, all of us WILL perform on stage, and the whole atmosphere will be just like 五月天concert.

梦想永远是逆光

只有剪影的模样

会有什么细节

什么体验

不要只猜想

You know that situation where you wished someone hadn't tell you something? Even if they did, please have some facts to back them up. who knows what kind of misunderstanding or misconception the person listening will come up with. Is this what they called "Ignorance is bliss"? Damn, I would do anything just to get the information out of my head.

Lately, I woke up everyday, feeling chained and frustrated.
I loathe this feeling, having to wake up so early in the morning, being "Forced" to work.

I'm so easily get carried away.

But again, there are always some things which you can't go against, right?

Man, it ache so much!

It's 1am in the morning and I'm still awake.
Damn movie, too nice to put down.



So romantic, so... fairy tale-ish.

Rise of the Guardian.
The movie preview looks promising, but I had a feeling that this movie would flunk.
Not anybody could just pull off a plot with such famous folklore characters.
But amazingly, everything fall into place!
The plot matched the origin and job of the characters.

Jack Frost, Boogie man, Santas Claus, Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny and Sandman.
Each of them fit their "Occupation",
and the events in the movie really links to real life's festive season.
Exciting battles, cool characters, with a deep moral story.

I'm giving this movie a 5, or at the very least... a 4.5

I can't believe myself to be able to came up with such sentence.
"If success is determined by the amount of effort you put in, I'll be a millionaire".
It wasn't a word of wisdom, but close enough.

After much thought, I realised I actually heard of it somewhere before.
It was in one of the movies I watched or something.
"If success is determined only be the amount of efforts put in, everyone would be a billionaire."

Typing like this sounds like a good idea.
It looks as if I'm busy writing an email.
Now what should I post about?

Oh, I'm drinking green tea right now to keep myself awake.
At the same time, browsing Sentosa images.
Such an irony that I've been living in this small Singapore Island,
and yet I see so many images of Singapore that I've never been to.
Looking at how the people in the pictures pose and having a great time... (Envy)

I've been reading this book regarding 5 Levels of Leadership.
I'm hoping to gain insight from this book that can help me with People Relation.
I'm left with the last few pages, but with me being me,
I'm very dissapointed with myself that very little of what I've read really got processed.
Well, I do realised a few things.
A person with a position doesn't make him a leader,
His action and his core value does. So just like what Yan Zuan always said,
"Lead by example".
You can't get somebody to do something that you are not willing to do.

Oh yes, the book also mentioned that blogging actually helps in organising your mind.
That is also the reason why I starts blogging more frequently now.

Finished my work, nothing to do since 3pm...
Boss having business discussion, and she is just right behind me.
Can't surf internet, have to look busy.
And I'm freakin sleepy! Why does my position have to be just in front of her!

This company keep sucking up my time, keeping me from going off on time,
I hate it so much especially when I have something on and yet they do this.
Feels like exploding in their face, but I'm gonna stay my cool,
one of the trait of a leader is keeping calm in extreme situation.

"我需要你帮我做这个箱子白标的底，
全部都根据这里一摸一样,
待会儿我会把 Adam Cook交给你.“

”Adam Cook?"

“是啊，每个箱子都有不一样的Adam Cook啊“

“哦~，Item Code~"

Sometimes it's hilarious to converse with a PRC

"没梦的人睡不醒，有梦的人睡不着"

读起来多么可笑，可是也多么的真实！

还有Patrick Joe 所说的, "Study Hard, Work Hard, Die"

可悲的是，现代就是有那么多的人向现实降服, 

"读个像样的学校，找个像样的工作，找个像样的地方永眠"

上了星期二的中心会议，颜钻宣布了他的目标，以及燃烧了我们所有人里面的一把火。

颜钻说他相信我们都可以上钻石！在明年之前要在中心聚集100个人！

然后明年集聚更多更多的人！这样的话，钻石之路将不会离我们有多远。

五年定江山，我们都可以上FC!

It's amazing how many negative people there are around us.

Some are so negative, they tend to think of all the negative matters in the world ALL THE TIME.

Perhaps I've been listening to Mayday for too long, but as I listen, I came to a realization. Perhaps the reason why they are considered to be the top Rock Band among the Chinese is that because their lyrics spoke of our life. It speaks for us and you felt that there is someone in this world that understands you. You can imagine yourself in the scenario while you are listening to their music. And another factor is the truth in the lyrics. It speaks wisdom and encourages people. We want to someone who encourage us, we want someone who cheer us up.


It's the same as whatever we always do. A relationship only develops when both parties shows interest towards each other. It will not happen if it is one-sided. And a relationship will reach a whole new level when a party were able to get the other party through a rough time. This bond is the type of relationship that is slowly depleting in our current society.

当你真心帮助一个人的时候, 好事将会发生.

就像May所说的"好人有好报".

只为了想帮一个朋友止痒,喷了一次口喷,之后他就马上跟我要了一个!

Wow, the power of 成功领. Been rejected 3 times in a row, and yet still no negative thoughts. It doesn't matter, I'll move on to the next one, I still believe that sooner or later they will understand.

So tired these few days,  especially my eyes, they would just close anytime anywhere. But the Artistry Makeup Class was fun and interesting! The host were humorous and very interactive.

Oh wow, 算我看错人了. I had so much respect for your ability, and yet this is how you utilize them, to cause destruction and dispute. I know we have a kind(maybe too kind) boss, but to take advantage of it for your personal gain is just too low for a person like you. If this is how you define your way towards success, good luck to you, it might get you somewhere, but it will not get you far. Throwing away your integrity in pursuit of your success... I'm utterly disappointed in you.

Next week is our dance performance, and we are not ready. We will have to cut some steps. It is now Quality over Quantity. And I'm yet to find 20 friends to support my performance.

On a lighter note, I realised my mom is just like a typical mom. I knew she loves helping us to fix our torn clothes, but I didn't know that she has a dream of becoming a fashion designer. Wow, this is like the best discovery of my generation!

I had weird dreams lately. Yesterday it was something about a broken toilet, whereby the waste was flushed out instead of flushed in, lost my appetite the whole day.

But the most troubling dream was last night. Where I dreamt that human populations became dog-man. we retained humans intelligence and everything, just that everyone looks like a dog. And I was in an orphanage, somehow I was mistakenly taken in as I look like 1 of the orphan. Who knows where the real orphan went. Anyway, we were really treated badly, we had to do hard labor and a very hazardous work environment.

And to my surprise, I met my boss and supervisor from my previous workplace, which I hated a lot! I hate that place, I don't even know why I accepted that job. Sucky working hours and so hard to fit in. Anyway, when I went up the stairs of the orphanage, I bumped into them, covered my face and tried to walk pass them. Unfortunately, that ex-boss of mine was really interested in talking to me. Initially she didn't find out who I am, until she asked me what's my position in the orphanage so I had to tell who I really am. She was really surprised to see me and we chit chatted abit.

I've forgotten the rest of the dream, except the ending which was really bizarre. There is this witch who told me that I actually came from another world, from passing a bridge a few days ago. She told me I shouldn't be here and I should return to my own world, but I have to be fast, as the portal from the bridge only opens twice a year. The day that I came into this world, and the next hour. I had to clear through a few obstacle on my way there to get to the bridge in time. The next scene was in bird's eye view whereby it looks like I'm controlling myself from the sky, looking down I could see myself riding a bike and clearing obstacle along the road. It feels like I'm playing a racing game. And just when I reached the portal, I woke up.

I felt weird afterwards, it feels like I really just came back from that other world, and now that my mission had been accomplished, they sent me back to the real world. I felt just like a protagonist of a storybook, or fairytale. Even now, I'm still confused if it really happened...

Everyone is getting so psyched by the additional 20% PV for anyone who registered within this month! And so am I! What a contagious environment we are in.

Woke up early in the morning and right eye felt really uncomfortable. There isn't any redness or anything. But i can feel my eyelid seems swollen. I wonder why.

Travel around the world! Discovering new things, experiencing new culture, without any worries of the world. Someday I'll achieve it!

I won't let you wait too long.

Just a little while longer.

Having no means of media to contact a person and you starts worrying whether something bad happened to them,

Met up with a friend of mine for a movie on Sunday, "The Vow". A friend whom we bumped into was shocked when he heard we are going to watch the movie. 2 guys watching such a romantic movie could really give people the wrong idea.

Anyway, after the movie, we somehow drift upon this subject, makes us thinking. Have you ever have this feeling whereby you are so driven to do 1 thing this minute, but the next you lost the motivation. You were so convinced that by doing it it will add value to your life, but somehow your brain RE-convinced not to do it. My friend told me how he could relate to this situation, as some people only wants the rewards without the hard work. "It doesn't matter, I still could live well without doing it." They don't see the need to change as they are comfortable with their current way of life. Oh well...

I'm glad I went for the Genting trip.

So many interesting stories and experiences to absorb.

The best thing of all is that, my goal in life has been confirmed!

My heart sank a bit just now,

but that sentence makes everything so clear now.

If that's what she wished for, I'll give her my full support,

no more playing a fool, I should be what I should be.

Thank You! ^_^

You can accomplish so much in life, it doesn't matter if you fail. The most important thing is that whatever you did, it's your story, yours and your alone. Nobody can take that away from you. In storybooks and novel, does the protagonist ALWAYS win? No. But doesn't it makes the story interesting?

Feels like constipation,

got so many things want to do but so restricted.

Oh my god, The KFC Promotion coupon just saved my lunch.

How clumsy of me to had left my wallet at home.

I've never thought I would be learning make-up,

neither have I considered myself as a professional make-up artist,

I can't call myself a make-up consultant either yet.

But thanks to the "MAKEOVER" event organized by the centre,

as well as the opportunity to be part of the make-up team,

somehow I have the confidence that I can do it,

that someday I would be able to do it. To be a professional Beauty Consultant.

Uh oh, I think I'm becoming a stalker.

Shall resist checking in on her blog too often.

I never knew I could care about someone this much.

Somehow you made me feel like protecting you.

Never to let anything harm you in any way.

With you, I feel the reason for my existence.

Wth? I dreamt my nephew were able to speak and read korean!

Must have watched too much running man...

Tonight Tonight~

Da dum da dum da dum Tsss~~

God, I'm missing her already.

Wrong move dude...

Better luck next time~

Wow, I passed the first obstacle!

There's nothing to celebrate though.

From here on out, everything will be determined by my actions.

It's so hard to continue without knowing the outcome of the first obstacle

Oh yeah~ Life's Good!

How can something so beautiful hurts us so much?

Why do obvious answers so easily overlooked?

I've just learnt a very interesting technique!

It can diagnose the condition of your internal organs.

Update for my To Do List :

- To perform on stage with my family band!

This might take some time, maybe even years, knowing that none of us in the family being good in playing instruments. But I'm already arranging the songs we'll be playing when that day arrived.

Johannes - Lead Singer/Guitarist

Jokko - Backup Singer/Bass

Jokhie - Drumset

Pheiyani - Keyboard

Shit, I'm so damn motivated now!

To Do List :

- Recap Flash Actionscript Language

- Create a Flash Game

- Experiment with FL Studio

- Create a webpage for "Our Band"

- Study Nutrition

- Reconnect with friends

- Find a job

In the midst of catching up with lost-contacted friends, I realised the difference of maturity in them, now and then. And here I am, still stuck with the maturity from then -.-

I feel like going out, on my own.

Maybe I'll catch a movie or smth.

Going out with my friends just makes me feel even more depressed.

I have no idea why I can't seem to communicate with anyone lately.

None of the topics I bought out seem to connect,

and none of their topics seem to connect with me.

Damn, mistakes again.

The feeling of being rushed sucks.

And the feeling of rushing someone sucks even more!

Sorry Alund, I gotta rant for a while. Please bear with me.

I just finished a recce at singapore flyer. It's really rare to be released early, my job has just gotten more interesting. But... Where do i go now from here??? Go home? I've been stuck at home for so long, not using this chance to take a walk is such a waste. Where do you think i could go, Alund?

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Hey Al,

Work is stale, I'm currently waiting for a call from Citytour.

Called them million times and still can't get me through to the person in charge.

Said that she went to the restroom and will call me back,

but no call even after 5 minutes. She must be avoiding me after the previous calls.

My colleague is down with fever and yet she still comes for work.

-salute- my utmost respect.

It's still just the beginning of the day,

early in the morning I woke up to photocopy my certs for the appointment with the MOM later in the afternoon.

I only realised that my passport is missing.

Searched frantically throughout the whole house, called my siblings and mom.

After 1 hour of searching, I finally found it... in my sister's mini drawer... =_=

I didn't really pay much attention to it but... this boy at the left with the skateboard is really skillfully drawn. If only I was the artist. That's it, from today onwards, you shall be my blog butler! I shall name you..... Alund!

New Job, and I hope a new start towards life.
The job was alright, a little awkward at the beginning though.
The people are friendly, but hard for me to communicate with.
And I'm using Macbook for the first time.

I get to travel a lot in this job, as in REALLY a lot.
Imagine 3 places back and forth within 4 hours.
The only bad side I guess is the unpredictable working hours.

I want answers...

Is it just me or am I down on luck?

What is my potential? What are my abilities?

What!? Are you saying I've been nurturing the wrong skill!?

I spent most of my time alone so much that my brain started wondering about perhaps bizarre subjects such as "Why do we see, feel, smell, and think through this body? There are so many creatures in this world and yet, why this particular individual?"... so much, that using the word meditation could be an understatement.

A supposedly positive mood after an outing was so easily ruined because of my ego.
pffttt

Ask me if I'm happy, and I would answer "yes, I'm happy".

어떻게 해야 돼요?

God! I love my family freakin much!
And I couldn't help but laugh at myself for only realizing that now.
Sorry if I ever take you guys for granted.

Speaking of granted, looking back, I felt that there are too much things I have taken for granted. Studies, time, money... and friends. I felt so remorseful over the people I had hurt.

Today, I'm going on a journey to the deepest part of my inner conscience .
I suspect that there might be an inception happening inside.
I wish to know more about myself, as well as what I really want.
I hope I'm strong enough to distinguish between what I want and what I need.

I could't emphasis more on how much better you will feel after you speak your mind about things that you have been keeping inside you.

For too many times we felt doubt and uneasy about certain things, but we simply refused to talk and share about it. And why do we refused? Is it because we are afraid of the reaction we get? Or the impressions that we gave? No matter the reason, one thing for sure is that we will never clear our doubts unless we speak our mind, then communications are achieved and doubts being answered.

My jamming buddies/band mates are wonderful people, a mix of human beings with unique personalities. We set up this band almost 2 years ago, and we starts without any or little music background. Things were ok when i could come for every practices. But once i stepped into society, i guess works overwhelmed me. I have no more time to go for the practices and i felt that i don't contribute to the band anymore and I Guess I felt outcasted. Going for practice becomes an obligation, and i no longer enjoy it. I finally talked it out with one of them and... Things were not what i thought it is...

We have known each other for 6-7 years, and i felt guilty for underestimating the value of our friendship. I shouldn't have worry too much about it for I should believe that they believe I am trying my best to contribute to the band.

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You saw your young nephew playing with your keyboard, banging the notes aimlessly. You think it's annoying and you told him to stop, every single time he does it. Yes he will stop, but wouldn't we be carving a false mindset to the kid that playing with the keyboard is wrong? That it is an action that will result in them being reprimanded? To save themselves from uneccessary trouble, they stop touching the keyboard entirely, completely shutting their doors from music.

I saw my nephew banging the keyboard, creating horrible "music", but I didn't shut them up. I merely told them to lower down the volume. I have to say, even convincing them to lower it down is a difficult task. But what I slowlly realized was that, he was actually figuring out the notes for "twinkle twinkle little star". Feeling all excited and amazed by his curiousity, I got up and guide him with the song, relieved that I didn't hinder his music explorations.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, we as an adult, as well as the role-model for the younger generations should encourage and motivate, instead of restricting and depriving them of what could be their best potential. Let their body and mind roam free, I believe this will nurture their creativity and self-expression, not to mention boosting their self-confidence.

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If there is 1 thing I learn, don't throw your garbage at other person.
BECAUSE THE RUBBISH WILL SOMEHOW CAME BACK TO YOU

No matter what promises we made, or were given,
there will always be a time when you'll be disappointed.

Already too much time, I've clinged to promises,
only to realise they are just mere words and be disappointed .

I know sometimes promises are hard to keep, and sometimes, forgotten.
I don't blame any person for that.
I can't force people to remember every single promises they made.
But I can force myself to at least keep my promises,
and deliver them just as I promised.
"Don't do things that you don't want others do to you" simple, no?

These promises I currently hold, I won't expect too much from it,
neither will I totally ignore. I'll see what would happen.

Do I have problems with the people around me?
Or does the people around me have problem with me?

God dammit... I gotta get to the bottom of this.

I can't do this...
I'll never be a good brother...

Don't you just hate it when your good friend was depressed,
and there you are wanting to console, but nothing comes out?
The next thing you know, you tried too hard and rubbish blabbers out of your mouth.
Instead of consoling, you makes them more confused and awkward by your action.

I'm so going to be super healthy, sleeping this early everyday.
Tomorrow is a brand new day,
Ignore the bad things happen today,
and embrace the present, that is tomorrow.

I like being happy, because I refuse to be sad.
I like being alone, because I refuse to be lonely.
I like being childish, because I refuse to be mature.... wait a minute O.o

I sleep early, and I know I have a healthy body.
I ate a lot, and I'm able to keep slim.
I studied a lot, and I know I spent my time wisely.
I smiled a lot, and I know it brighten someone's day

To all the people out there, have a nice weekend. =D

I sleep early... But I still feel sleepy all the time.
I ate a lot... But I'm still skinny.
I studied alot... But I doesn't improve much.
I smiled a lot... But everything goes wrong.

6C classmates were grumbling for another gathering,
and they automatically point at me to be the organizer.
Like, I'm not already very busy...
BUT, it's a good thing, means that they are keen to keep in contact.
And maybe they believe that I'm able to organize a good gathering.
In any way, it really boost my self-esteem. Thank Guys.

People change from time to time.
No matter is for the better, or for the worse.
But there will always be a core in everyone,
that will always stays the same.
What it is, no one is sure
As it differs for every individual.

I just finished cleaning my room(okay, table to be more precise). And I found a lot of things that I thought I lost. A lot of these things have some significant value, memories residing in them, and I felt bad to ever lost them. It's like I don't care about these memories, in which I actually do.

I'm tired...
Let's hope everything will be done by this week,
I really need a rest.

My throat is killing me!
I suspect it's the plastic water bottle I brought to work.
Must be some of the plastic melted and fused with the water when I fill it with warm water.

I'm getting sick easily lately.
My immunity system is really declining.

I should sleep early tonight.
after all, tomorrow IS the graduation ceremony.
I guess not all promises are meant to be realised, huh.
Well, it's ok... no one is perfect right?

It was another nightmare again, this morning.
I want my dreamless sleep back...

It's strange that I've never remembered what I dreamed about,
but lately, my dreams appeared more clearly than ever.
And most of the time, it's nightmare.
Really spoils my day.

Graduation Ceremony is 3 days away,
Just cut my hair,
And I just realised my hair length still doesn't meet the requirement....

Oh, I just remembered what I was supposed to blog about.
But looks like I can't post it yet.
Next time, perhaps.
Got to leave myself a reminder to post it.

Reminder to self : Imaginary Friend.

Goddamn brain has such little memory space!
It's always like this,
whenever I thought I finally got something to blog about,
I went home and can't recall what was it that I wanted to blog about.

I think I'm gonna bring a handy notebook wherever I go,
so that I can immediately write down what's in my mind.
But wait, wouldn't that defeat the purpose of having a blog?
Since it's already logged into my notebook.

I'm gonna need a break,
to sort out everything.
Time Time Time...

There goes my last connection with NYP.
My last Percussion Ensemble Concert...
So now I'm fully a working adult.

I've got to find something irrelevant to work to do,
I don't want to be like a robot, working everyday.

This is a thank you gift from my colleague at work...
It was a very minor help,
and.... I don't really eat strawberry,
and I don't want to look ungrateful.
So what did I do?

I stored it in my company's Freezer.

I stared at this empty new post for 1/2 an hour,
thinking about what to say, and finally decided to wrote this.