I realized I've never really been in a stress before. It's either that, or I was raised in an environment where my complicated stuffs were solved by people around me. People said that stress causes hair loss, never had I imagined that it happens to me. I was astonished by the amount of hair I found on the shower floor after I showered my hair.

Recent incidents really made me wonder about the way I lived my life. Some things you just can't let emotion blind your judgement. Some things you just can't decide on impulse. Some things are just better to be done as soon as possible. Always PLAN AHEAD.

IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN, YOU PLAN TO FAIL.

No matter how many times I said this, I still regret for not really putting my 100% during my school days. No matter how many times I said this, I still can't control myself from getting distracted, like how I'm being distracted by blogspot right now. Countless times have I wished that I could turn back times, and countless times have I wasted my time on day dreaming such as this.

It's so hard to walk the right track, even if I managed to, there's always rocks and river blocking the way, and how tempting it is to just quit.

Damn it, I need a job! Time is running out...

Dun call me illegal immigrant... -.-

Once in a while, you felt like doing something nice, a good deed.
You felt good when you got praised for it.
Then when you are back to being the old you again,
and stop continuing to do good deeds, they curse you for it.
So isn't it logical that it's better to be your usual self all the time?
Then people won't be able to judge you?

How long have I lived? And how much of it have I spent doing meaningful things?

I've just watched an anonymous video that sent me a wake up call. Throughout my years, I was raised with the presence of video games. I moved from Sega, to Playstation, Computer, GameBoy and Playstation 2. I literally grew up with it. I have spent hours of time sitting in front of the screen, doing something unproductive. I have played all kinds of game genre, but it doesn't make me smarter, nor does it improve my reflexes. I wasn't any step closer to being a ninja, swordsman, hero, or even a kung fu master.

So what if you got a highscore in a game, you can't use it as a resume during job interview. People often forgot that games are meant for entertainment, a factor, that we will never get enough of. sure it's just a few hours now and then, but accumulated, you'll be amazed by how much time you have wasted.

Life is not like games. You only have 1 CHANCE. You missed it, that's it. Why would you give up the times u can spent with your family and friends, for something that has no real value? You could have used the time to achieve something greater. For the sake of entertainment, you give up sleep, health and ambition, FOR WHAT?

shit sia.... this link... almost made me cry.
Damn inspiring, can!

http://en.tackfilm.se/?id=1264431862875RA52

The childhood games I used to play,
is still as fun as ever!

Attachment is just not as boring anymore.

Organizing event is such a drag...

New Year~ New Year~
I felt kind of pathetic staying at home in the first day of a New Year.
Not that I'm complaining.
But it turned out to be a very interesting day.

With my PS2 out of the way,
my only means of gaming is my SUPER DUPER OLD PS1.
You see, a few days ago my brother were packing old stuffs,
and he stumbled upon our SUPER DUPER OLD PS1 game discs.
We were laughing our ass off at how retarded the game is,
and yet we love playing it so much when we were just a kid.

Little by little, while playing, memories of our childhood came back.
"Isn't this the part where you cry because you keep getting killed by me?"
"Isn't this the time where you accidentally deleted my saved file?"
"Isn't this the game you bought again because your friend forgot to return?"

Yep, kind of a good start for a whole new year...

Look at the date. It's already the Year 2010.

Rewinding my life in 2009,
I experienced so many new things.
Losing something that is already a part of your life...
Adapting new mind set...
But, the subject that left me the biggest impression in 2009,
is FRIENDSHIP.

I'm not the kind of guy who knows how to express his feeling into writing,
so, let's just skip this part.

The last day of 2009...
it end well with family activities, Karaoke session,
New Year Wishes SMS-es, and New Year Gifts from friends.
Thanks everyone for the wishes!
Enjoy the starting of a new year!
And as my friend said,
"Throw bad things to rubbish dump, keep good things into the piggy bank"

My Mom and Dad came to Singapore.
Almost felt like a perfect Christmas Reunion.

The "So-called" Last episode of Doraemon.



My bro watched and we had this msn conversation...

Bro : then what will you do?

dunno lei

how if it really involves someone's live?
someone close to you?
so what will you do?

I should do something
I think i would just let doraemon dangling there
left him preserved

not trying to revive him?

cause it's nearly impossible ma
what are the chances

most probably you are the only chance that he can be revived wasn't it?

Not really

then?
who will know about his existence and let things happen?
the future has created him
so most probably it is not impossible

I'm the only chance of reviving him
but what are the chance of me succeeding

that is really depend on you isn't it?

but I'm not the one who created him ma

so?
u still can BE the one to revive him
are you going to wait for things to happen or make things happen?
what if the person is me?

I'll call the doctors

-__-"
so let's say i'm a robot like him?
the situation similar like him
how?

by right i should find a way to revive u right

by right lah
lol...
how about the real thing

somehow I can't get myself to write "i will find a way to revive you"
i felt as if i'm lying

lol...
that's good
at least u r honest

lol

just a sentence for you alright?
The amount of effort you put, is directly proportionate to the quality of the final product
as in
from what i analyse from our convo
you seems like u r not so sure what kind of future u have
like
zou yi bu kan yi bu
am i right?

think so

ya
and you seems like trying to take the easy way out from things
not entirely bad
but
as i mentioned earlier
if you want to be successful
most of the time you have to persevere and push on
for example
there are many web designer
they are good
but
between them, there'll be a few who are at the top notch
because they put more effort than the rest
that is why they are more successful

My bro who takes life seriously.
He is like the oracle, or enlightened on in our family.
I respect him very much.

And it's not that I won't revive him.
Just that I don't think I have what it takes.
But 1 thing for sure is that,
He create impacts throughout my entire life.
I probably wouldn't be what I am today if it wasn't for him.

A positive mind returns a positive day.

Attachment suck the life out of me

I dreamed that I was a player in L4D2,
There were zombies, and small zombie insects.
The zombies were the people that I know,
And I got killed by them....

:(

It must be nice, being a bad guy.
You can get whatever you want.
Nobody dares to create trouble for you.
Everything goes your way.
Everybody listens to you through fear.
It's so tempting....

Bye Bye FYP...
Curse you Attachment!

Happy Birthday, Lee Chia!
Missed saturday dance...

Went Sentosa, and I think I got myself a sunburnt...
My mom went back to Jakarta,
and while I was waiting for her to reach Changi Airport,
I went to Popeye.

I was in front of these 2 women while queuing.
They were complaining about how slow our line's personnel is,
so long still haven't reach their turn.
I was sure they speak with that volume so that I can hear them.

It's finally my turn.
And I said to the personnel, "Hey Mery! How's everything?"
She said, "Not too bad, just been very busy."
And I said, "Ah, I see. Good luck then.
Oh, and attend the 2 women behind me with haste will ya?
They were complaining about how slow you attend to your customer".
She said, "Really!? Haha, okay. No prob. See you, and enjoy your meal!"
I stared at the women and went to my seat, leaving them dumbfounded.

Nah~ I'm not such a daredevil.
But I was on the verge to do just that.
Felt like making them have a taste of their own medicine.

Different people have different quality of ability.
From what I see, she wasn't THAT slow.
Why not let them have a taste of her job and see how difficult it is.
I'm sure they wouldn't give their customer that smile she displayed.
the patience, the attitude...

Be strong, man.
I believe they are not foolish enough to let you 2 suffer.
You 2 are still trying your best to get them back together.
Believe that 1 day they will understand,
and everything will be back to normal.

Bah...
Damn no mood.
Don't feel like doing anything,
but at the same time, want to do something.
Feel so damn empty.
Hate this feeling man!
Half and hour more till the day is over.
I shall go for a walk.... or maybe not.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tommorow's Mr Henry's Birthday.
He helped me a lot for my FYP,
Should I celebrate a mini birthday party for him?