I feel like going out, on my own.

Maybe I'll catch a movie or smth.

Going out with my friends just makes me feel even more depressed.

I have no idea why I can't seem to communicate with anyone lately.

None of the topics I bought out seem to connect,

and none of their topics seem to connect with me.

Damn, mistakes again.

The feeling of being rushed sucks.

And the feeling of rushing someone sucks even more!

Sorry Alund, I gotta rant for a while. Please bear with me.

I just finished a recce at singapore flyer. It's really rare to be released early, my job has just gotten more interesting. But... Where do i go now from here??? Go home? I've been stuck at home for so long, not using this chance to take a walk is such a waste. Where do you think i could go, Alund?

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Hey Al,

Work is stale, I'm currently waiting for a call from Citytour.

Called them million times and still can't get me through to the person in charge.

Said that she went to the restroom and will call me back,

but no call even after 5 minutes. She must be avoiding me after the previous calls.

My colleague is down with fever and yet she still comes for work.

-salute- my utmost respect.

It's still just the beginning of the day,

early in the morning I woke up to photocopy my certs for the appointment with the MOM later in the afternoon.

I only realised that my passport is missing.

Searched frantically throughout the whole house, called my siblings and mom.

After 1 hour of searching, I finally found it... in my sister's mini drawer... =_=

I didn't really pay much attention to it but... this boy at the left with the skateboard is really skillfully drawn. If only I was the artist. That's it, from today onwards, you shall be my blog butler! I shall name you..... Alund!

New Job, and I hope a new start towards life.
The job was alright, a little awkward at the beginning though.
The people are friendly, but hard for me to communicate with.
And I'm using Macbook for the first time.

I get to travel a lot in this job, as in REALLY a lot.
Imagine 3 places back and forth within 4 hours.
The only bad side I guess is the unpredictable working hours.

I want answers...

Is it just me or am I down on luck?

What is my potential? What are my abilities?

What!? Are you saying I've been nurturing the wrong skill!?

I spent most of my time alone so much that my brain started wondering about perhaps bizarre subjects such as "Why do we see, feel, smell, and think through this body? There are so many creatures in this world and yet, why this particular individual?"... so much, that using the word meditation could be an understatement.

A supposedly positive mood after an outing was so easily ruined because of my ego.
pffttt

Ask me if I'm happy, and I would answer "yes, I'm happy".

어떻게 해야 돼요?

God! I love my family freakin much!
And I couldn't help but laugh at myself for only realizing that now.
Sorry if I ever take you guys for granted.

Speaking of granted, looking back, I felt that there are too much things I have taken for granted. Studies, time, money... and friends. I felt so remorseful over the people I had hurt.

Today, I'm going on a journey to the deepest part of my inner conscience .
I suspect that there might be an inception happening inside.
I wish to know more about myself, as well as what I really want.
I hope I'm strong enough to distinguish between what I want and what I need.

I could't emphasis more on how much better you will feel after you speak your mind about things that you have been keeping inside you.

For too many times we felt doubt and uneasy about certain things, but we simply refused to talk and share about it. And why do we refused? Is it because we are afraid of the reaction we get? Or the impressions that we gave? No matter the reason, one thing for sure is that we will never clear our doubts unless we speak our mind, then communications are achieved and doubts being answered.

My jamming buddies/band mates are wonderful people, a mix of human beings with unique personalities. We set up this band almost 2 years ago, and we starts without any or little music background. Things were ok when i could come for every practices. But once i stepped into society, i guess works overwhelmed me. I have no more time to go for the practices and i felt that i don't contribute to the band anymore and I Guess I felt outcasted. Going for practice becomes an obligation, and i no longer enjoy it. I finally talked it out with one of them and... Things were not what i thought it is...

We have known each other for 6-7 years, and i felt guilty for underestimating the value of our friendship. I shouldn't have worry too much about it for I should believe that they believe I am trying my best to contribute to the band.

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You saw your young nephew playing with your keyboard, banging the notes aimlessly. You think it's annoying and you told him to stop, every single time he does it. Yes he will stop, but wouldn't we be carving a false mindset to the kid that playing with the keyboard is wrong? That it is an action that will result in them being reprimanded? To save themselves from uneccessary trouble, they stop touching the keyboard entirely, completely shutting their doors from music.

I saw my nephew banging the keyboard, creating horrible "music", but I didn't shut them up. I merely told them to lower down the volume. I have to say, even convincing them to lower it down is a difficult task. But what I slowlly realized was that, he was actually figuring out the notes for "twinkle twinkle little star". Feeling all excited and amazed by his curiousity, I got up and guide him with the song, relieved that I didn't hinder his music explorations.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, we as an adult, as well as the role-model for the younger generations should encourage and motivate, instead of restricting and depriving them of what could be their best potential. Let their body and mind roam free, I believe this will nurture their creativity and self-expression, not to mention boosting their self-confidence.

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If there is 1 thing I learn, don't throw your garbage at other person.
BECAUSE THE RUBBISH WILL SOMEHOW CAME BACK TO YOU