God! I love my family freakin much!
And I couldn't help but laugh at myself for only realizing that now.
Sorry if I ever take you guys for granted.

Speaking of granted, looking back, I felt that there are too much things I have taken for granted. Studies, time, money... and friends. I felt so remorseful over the people I had hurt.

Today, I'm going on a journey to the deepest part of my inner conscience .
I suspect that there might be an inception happening inside.
I wish to know more about myself, as well as what I really want.
I hope I'm strong enough to distinguish between what I want and what I need.

I could't emphasis more on how much better you will feel after you speak your mind about things that you have been keeping inside you.

For too many times we felt doubt and uneasy about certain things, but we simply refused to talk and share about it. And why do we refused? Is it because we are afraid of the reaction we get? Or the impressions that we gave? No matter the reason, one thing for sure is that we will never clear our doubts unless we speak our mind, then communications are achieved and doubts being answered.

My jamming buddies/band mates are wonderful people, a mix of human beings with unique personalities. We set up this band almost 2 years ago, and we starts without any or little music background. Things were ok when i could come for every practices. But once i stepped into society, i guess works overwhelmed me. I have no more time to go for the practices and i felt that i don't contribute to the band anymore and I Guess I felt outcasted. Going for practice becomes an obligation, and i no longer enjoy it. I finally talked it out with one of them and... Things were not what i thought it is...

We have known each other for 6-7 years, and i felt guilty for underestimating the value of our friendship. I shouldn't have worry too much about it for I should believe that they believe I am trying my best to contribute to the band.

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You saw your young nephew playing with your keyboard, banging the notes aimlessly. You think it's annoying and you told him to stop, every single time he does it. Yes he will stop, but wouldn't we be carving a false mindset to the kid that playing with the keyboard is wrong? That it is an action that will result in them being reprimanded? To save themselves from uneccessary trouble, they stop touching the keyboard entirely, completely shutting their doors from music.

I saw my nephew banging the keyboard, creating horrible "music", but I didn't shut them up. I merely told them to lower down the volume. I have to say, even convincing them to lower it down is a difficult task. But what I slowlly realized was that, he was actually figuring out the notes for "twinkle twinkle little star". Feeling all excited and amazed by his curiousity, I got up and guide him with the song, relieved that I didn't hinder his music explorations.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, we as an adult, as well as the role-model for the younger generations should encourage and motivate, instead of restricting and depriving them of what could be their best potential. Let their body and mind roam free, I believe this will nurture their creativity and self-expression, not to mention boosting their self-confidence.

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If there is 1 thing I learn, don't throw your garbage at other person.
BECAUSE THE RUBBISH WILL SOMEHOW CAME BACK TO YOU

No matter what promises we made, or were given,
there will always be a time when you'll be disappointed.

Already too much time, I've clinged to promises,
only to realise they are just mere words and be disappointed .

I know sometimes promises are hard to keep, and sometimes, forgotten.
I don't blame any person for that.
I can't force people to remember every single promises they made.
But I can force myself to at least keep my promises,
and deliver them just as I promised.
"Don't do things that you don't want others do to you" simple, no?

These promises I currently hold, I won't expect too much from it,
neither will I totally ignore. I'll see what would happen.

Do I have problems with the people around me?
Or does the people around me have problem with me?

God dammit... I gotta get to the bottom of this.

I can't do this...
I'll never be a good brother...

Don't you just hate it when your good friend was depressed,
and there you are wanting to console, but nothing comes out?
The next thing you know, you tried too hard and rubbish blabbers out of your mouth.
Instead of consoling, you makes them more confused and awkward by your action.

I'm so going to be super healthy, sleeping this early everyday.
Tomorrow is a brand new day,
Ignore the bad things happen today,
and embrace the present, that is tomorrow.

I like being happy, because I refuse to be sad.
I like being alone, because I refuse to be lonely.
I like being childish, because I refuse to be mature.... wait a minute O.o

I sleep early, and I know I have a healthy body.
I ate a lot, and I'm able to keep slim.
I studied a lot, and I know I spent my time wisely.
I smiled a lot, and I know it brighten someone's day

To all the people out there, have a nice weekend. =D

I sleep early... But I still feel sleepy all the time.
I ate a lot... But I'm still skinny.
I studied alot... But I doesn't improve much.
I smiled a lot... But everything goes wrong.

6C classmates were grumbling for another gathering,
and they automatically point at me to be the organizer.
Like, I'm not already very busy...
BUT, it's a good thing, means that they are keen to keep in contact.
And maybe they believe that I'm able to organize a good gathering.
In any way, it really boost my self-esteem. Thank Guys.

People change from time to time.
No matter is for the better, or for the worse.
But there will always be a core in everyone,
that will always stays the same.
What it is, no one is sure
As it differs for every individual.

I just finished cleaning my room(okay, table to be more precise). And I found a lot of things that I thought I lost. A lot of these things have some significant value, memories residing in them, and I felt bad to ever lost them. It's like I don't care about these memories, in which I actually do.

I'm tired...
Let's hope everything will be done by this week,
I really need a rest.

My throat is killing me!
I suspect it's the plastic water bottle I brought to work.
Must be some of the plastic melted and fused with the water when I fill it with warm water.

I'm getting sick easily lately.
My immunity system is really declining.

I should sleep early tonight.
after all, tomorrow IS the graduation ceremony.
I guess not all promises are meant to be realised, huh.
Well, it's ok... no one is perfect right?

It was another nightmare again, this morning.
I want my dreamless sleep back...

It's strange that I've never remembered what I dreamed about,
but lately, my dreams appeared more clearly than ever.
And most of the time, it's nightmare.
Really spoils my day.

Graduation Ceremony is 3 days away,
Just cut my hair,
And I just realised my hair length still doesn't meet the requirement....

Oh, I just remembered what I was supposed to blog about.
But looks like I can't post it yet.
Next time, perhaps.
Got to leave myself a reminder to post it.

Reminder to self : Imaginary Friend.

Goddamn brain has such little memory space!
It's always like this,
whenever I thought I finally got something to blog about,
I went home and can't recall what was it that I wanted to blog about.

I think I'm gonna bring a handy notebook wherever I go,
so that I can immediately write down what's in my mind.
But wait, wouldn't that defeat the purpose of having a blog?
Since it's already logged into my notebook.

I'm gonna need a break,
to sort out everything.
Time Time Time...

There goes my last connection with NYP.
My last Percussion Ensemble Concert...
So now I'm fully a working adult.

I've got to find something irrelevant to work to do,
I don't want to be like a robot, working everyday.

This is a thank you gift from my colleague at work...
It was a very minor help,
and.... I don't really eat strawberry,
and I don't want to look ungrateful.
So what did I do?

I stored it in my company's Freezer.

I stared at this empty new post for 1/2 an hour,
thinking about what to say, and finally decided to wrote this.

"How To Train You Dragon" is a great movie!
Go and watch it!
And I love the soundtrack!

I realized I've never really been in a stress before. It's either that, or I was raised in an environment where my complicated stuffs were solved by people around me. People said that stress causes hair loss, never had I imagined that it happens to me. I was astonished by the amount of hair I found on the shower floor after I showered my hair.

Recent incidents really made me wonder about the way I lived my life. Some things you just can't let emotion blind your judgement. Some things you just can't decide on impulse. Some things are just better to be done as soon as possible. Always PLAN AHEAD.

IF YOU FAIL TO PLAN, YOU PLAN TO FAIL.

No matter how many times I said this, I still regret for not really putting my 100% during my school days. No matter how many times I said this, I still can't control myself from getting distracted, like how I'm being distracted by blogspot right now. Countless times have I wished that I could turn back times, and countless times have I wasted my time on day dreaming such as this.

It's so hard to walk the right track, even if I managed to, there's always rocks and river blocking the way, and how tempting it is to just quit.

Damn it, I need a job! Time is running out...

Dun call me illegal immigrant... -.-

Once in a while, you felt like doing something nice, a good deed.
You felt good when you got praised for it.
Then when you are back to being the old you again,
and stop continuing to do good deeds, they curse you for it.
So isn't it logical that it's better to be your usual self all the time?
Then people won't be able to judge you?

How long have I lived? And how much of it have I spent doing meaningful things?

I've just watched an anonymous video that sent me a wake up call. Throughout my years, I was raised with the presence of video games. I moved from Sega, to Playstation, Computer, GameBoy and Playstation 2. I literally grew up with it. I have spent hours of time sitting in front of the screen, doing something unproductive. I have played all kinds of game genre, but it doesn't make me smarter, nor does it improve my reflexes. I wasn't any step closer to being a ninja, swordsman, hero, or even a kung fu master.

So what if you got a highscore in a game, you can't use it as a resume during job interview. People often forgot that games are meant for entertainment, a factor, that we will never get enough of. sure it's just a few hours now and then, but accumulated, you'll be amazed by how much time you have wasted.

Life is not like games. You only have 1 CHANCE. You missed it, that's it. Why would you give up the times u can spent with your family and friends, for something that has no real value? You could have used the time to achieve something greater. For the sake of entertainment, you give up sleep, health and ambition, FOR WHAT?

shit sia.... this link... almost made me cry.
Damn inspiring, can!

http://en.tackfilm.se/?id=1264431862875RA52

The childhood games I used to play,
is still as fun as ever!

Attachment is just not as boring anymore.

Organizing event is such a drag...

New Year~ New Year~
I felt kind of pathetic staying at home in the first day of a New Year.
Not that I'm complaining.
But it turned out to be a very interesting day.

With my PS2 out of the way,
my only means of gaming is my SUPER DUPER OLD PS1.
You see, a few days ago my brother were packing old stuffs,
and he stumbled upon our SUPER DUPER OLD PS1 game discs.
We were laughing our ass off at how retarded the game is,
and yet we love playing it so much when we were just a kid.

Little by little, while playing, memories of our childhood came back.
"Isn't this the part where you cry because you keep getting killed by me?"
"Isn't this the time where you accidentally deleted my saved file?"
"Isn't this the game you bought again because your friend forgot to return?"

Yep, kind of a good start for a whole new year...

Look at the date. It's already the Year 2010.

Rewinding my life in 2009,
I experienced so many new things.
Losing something that is already a part of your life...
Adapting new mind set...
But, the subject that left me the biggest impression in 2009,
is FRIENDSHIP.

I'm not the kind of guy who knows how to express his feeling into writing,
so, let's just skip this part.

The last day of 2009...
it end well with family activities, Karaoke session,
New Year Wishes SMS-es, and New Year Gifts from friends.
Thanks everyone for the wishes!
Enjoy the starting of a new year!
And as my friend said,
"Throw bad things to rubbish dump, keep good things into the piggy bank"