Is it just me or am I down on luck?

What is my potential? What are my abilities?

What!? Are you saying I've been nurturing the wrong skill!?

I spent most of my time alone so much that my brain started wondering about perhaps bizarre subjects such as "Why do we see, feel, smell, and think through this body? There are so many creatures in this world and yet, why this particular individual?"... so much, that using the word meditation could be an understatement.

A supposedly positive mood after an outing was so easily ruined because of my ego.
pffttt

Ask me if I'm happy, and I would answer "yes, I'm happy".

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God! I love my family freakin much!
And I couldn't help but laugh at myself for only realizing that now.
Sorry if I ever take you guys for granted.

Speaking of granted, looking back, I felt that there are too much things I have taken for granted. Studies, time, money... and friends. I felt so remorseful over the people I had hurt.

Today, I'm going on a journey to the deepest part of my inner conscience .
I suspect that there might be an inception happening inside.
I wish to know more about myself, as well as what I really want.
I hope I'm strong enough to distinguish between what I want and what I need.

I could't emphasis more on how much better you will feel after you speak your mind about things that you have been keeping inside you.

For too many times we felt doubt and uneasy about certain things, but we simply refused to talk and share about it. And why do we refused? Is it because we are afraid of the reaction we get? Or the impressions that we gave? No matter the reason, one thing for sure is that we will never clear our doubts unless we speak our mind, then communications are achieved and doubts being answered.

My jamming buddies/band mates are wonderful people, a mix of human beings with unique personalities. We set up this band almost 2 years ago, and we starts without any or little music background. Things were ok when i could come for every practices. But once i stepped into society, i guess works overwhelmed me. I have no more time to go for the practices and i felt that i don't contribute to the band anymore and I Guess I felt outcasted. Going for practice becomes an obligation, and i no longer enjoy it. I finally talked it out with one of them and... Things were not what i thought it is...

We have known each other for 6-7 years, and i felt guilty for underestimating the value of our friendship. I shouldn't have worry too much about it for I should believe that they believe I am trying my best to contribute to the band.

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You saw your young nephew playing with your keyboard, banging the notes aimlessly. You think it's annoying and you told him to stop, every single time he does it. Yes he will stop, but wouldn't we be carving a false mindset to the kid that playing with the keyboard is wrong? That it is an action that will result in them being reprimanded? To save themselves from uneccessary trouble, they stop touching the keyboard entirely, completely shutting their doors from music.

I saw my nephew banging the keyboard, creating horrible "music", but I didn't shut them up. I merely told them to lower down the volume. I have to say, even convincing them to lower it down is a difficult task. But what I slowlly realized was that, he was actually figuring out the notes for "twinkle twinkle little star". Feeling all excited and amazed by his curiousity, I got up and guide him with the song, relieved that I didn't hinder his music explorations.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, we as an adult, as well as the role-model for the younger generations should encourage and motivate, instead of restricting and depriving them of what could be their best potential. Let their body and mind roam free, I believe this will nurture their creativity and self-expression, not to mention boosting their self-confidence.

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If there is 1 thing I learn, don't throw your garbage at other person.
BECAUSE THE RUBBISH WILL SOMEHOW CAME BACK TO YOU

No matter what promises we made, or were given,
there will always be a time when you'll be disappointed.

Already too much time, I've clinged to promises,
only to realise they are just mere words and be disappointed .

I know sometimes promises are hard to keep, and sometimes, forgotten.
I don't blame any person for that.
I can't force people to remember every single promises they made.
But I can force myself to at least keep my promises,
and deliver them just as I promised.
"Don't do things that you don't want others do to you" simple, no?

These promises I currently hold, I won't expect too much from it,
neither will I totally ignore. I'll see what would happen.

Do I have problems with the people around me?
Or does the people around me have problem with me?

God dammit... I gotta get to the bottom of this.

I can't do this...
I'll never be a good brother...

Don't you just hate it when your good friend was depressed,
and there you are wanting to console, but nothing comes out?
The next thing you know, you tried too hard and rubbish blabbers out of your mouth.
Instead of consoling, you makes them more confused and awkward by your action.

I'm so going to be super healthy, sleeping this early everyday.
Tomorrow is a brand new day,
Ignore the bad things happen today,
and embrace the present, that is tomorrow.

I like being happy, because I refuse to be sad.
I like being alone, because I refuse to be lonely.
I like being childish, because I refuse to be mature.... wait a minute O.o

I sleep early, and I know I have a healthy body.
I ate a lot, and I'm able to keep slim.
I studied a lot, and I know I spent my time wisely.
I smiled a lot, and I know it brighten someone's day

To all the people out there, have a nice weekend. =D

I sleep early... But I still feel sleepy all the time.
I ate a lot... But I'm still skinny.
I studied alot... But I doesn't improve much.
I smiled a lot... But everything goes wrong.

6C classmates were grumbling for another gathering,
and they automatically point at me to be the organizer.
Like, I'm not already very busy...
BUT, it's a good thing, means that they are keen to keep in contact.
And maybe they believe that I'm able to organize a good gathering.
In any way, it really boost my self-esteem. Thank Guys.