Well, the year is ending, and although it might be too early I'm still gonna do an early new year review anyway.

Comparing to earlier this year, things didn't really improve financially for me. I even lost the low paying job that last only for 9 months, so now I'm doing graphic freelance. Everything went quite smoothly at first, but it isn't enough, if this goes on for another month I'm afraid I'll have to go back to employee mode. But I can't go back, not when I already built the momentum. I'll have to find another way.

There are moments during my period of unemployment that wasn't particularly pleasant, it was really awful and stressful. But I'm really glad my sister doesn't give up on me, and I managed to break through my psychological barriers, even if it might just be a minor one.

But out of all the things mentioned above, 1 particular event stood out from the rest. Thinking back there are so many things that I could have done better that could otherwise prevented all of this from happening. We could have spent Christmas, New Year, and even her Birthday together. Heck, I even thought that maybe if I hasn't dragged her into the centre we could have been together now. No matter how much I tried to suppress it, I still boiled up whenever I think about the stupid restriction and rules.

I miss you, like a hell lot.